Violent Words

His words are heartbreaking
but that he cannot see.
The horrible things he says
cut to the very core of me.
Deep down I would rather him be violent
and use his fists on me.
Even though the marks are visible
the scars don't cut as deeply.

Poem 17

Why do I even bother?
Some things will never change.
You always act like you love me
then proceed to call me names.
I worship the ground you walk on.
I'm yours, and yours alone.
But still you treat me badly.

Sometimes I think we are just friends
But friends don't treat friends this crappy.
You're always hurting me
and grabbing me.
Don't you know this hurts?
To give someone your heart
and have them stomp on it is the worst pain by far.

The Wall

He built a wall
And dared me to climb,
And when I reached the top
He laughed in my face
And shoved me back to the bottom.
He said, "We can't be having any more of this",
And added more to the wall.
And when he was finished
He dared me to try again.
So I did,
But when I got to the top
He was waiting.
So I laughed in his face
And said, "We can't be having any more of this."
Then I pushed him back to the bottom,
Climbed down the wall
And walked away.

Poem 16

I've lost you
and I don't know why.
You said it was my fault,
that I passed up my chance
but I don't see how.
I've wanted you to be mine for so long
and deep down I know I can still have you.
When I started to break down after my wreck
and you hugged me
I wanted to stay in your safe, strong arms
but you let me go
and told me to call you
if something went wrong.
Everything has gone wrong.
I need you and you're not here.
I trusted you and you let me go.
Even though you've let me go,
You're still mine
if only in my heart.

Poem 15

We sit here under the midnight sky,
a sky meant for two.
your arms wrapped tightly around my waist
but all you are doing is counting the seconds
until you can get my clothes off.

But when the smoke clears
and I can see for myself
I realize that you are
just a little boy
walking in the body
of an eighteen year old man.

Poem 14

Say what you're going to say.
Your words don't mean a thing to me anymore.
After all of your lies
why should I care?
I'm glad this is over.
I'm tired of your games.
this was too much for me.
evenings spent alone waiting for you,
nights spent in your car.
the passion in your voice when you said,
"I think I love you."
too much, too soon.
I fell for your lies one too many times
now I'm sitting here in all of the pain
you put me through
when you said those heartbreaking words
"I no longer love you."

Poem 13

Every time I see you smile
my heart dies a little more
but only because I know I
wasn't the one to place that
beautiful smile upon your lips.

Every time I see you cry
I wish I were your tears
so I could start as a twinkle
in your eye, roll down your cheek
and rest on your soft lips before being
caught by the wind
and carried far away from you.

Every time I tell myself I'm over you
I fall for you all over again.
When I notice you with her
my world goes quiet
and all you can hear is the shattering
of my heart as it hits
the cold, hard floor.